The Dancer

Have you ever been to a dance recital? I have been in one. Yes, the most unflexable person in the world took ballet, tap, and jazz a few years ago. To me the best dancers weren't the one who knew every step or who were the most flexable (ofcourse it didn't hurt) but the ones who danced with thier all. That you could see the passion coming from their eyes as they twirled and leaped across the stage.
I believe God gave us all steps that we dance to as we follow Him though life. For me- I know the steps pretty well. I have read the books, listened to the music, and done "Chirstian things". But what I want is to be the dancer so bursting with passion that no matter how good they are- watching them is like being able to feel what they do. People who give it their all, have always been intoxicating for me.
So many times we give God part of our lives. We go to church, we read our Bible, and even serve once in a while. God wants so much more than that from our lives. He wants a thrist for His love, a passion for His presence, it becomes much more than a ritual- its a relationship.
I think of the song by Matthew West- "I don't wanna go through the motions, I don't wanna waste one more day, without all your all consuming passion inside of me, I don't wanna spend my whole life asking, what if I had given everything, instead of going through the motions"
That's my prayer for the next few days- for my life. That I won't just go through the motions. Dance half-heartly through life. But that with all that I am love my Creator and know Him deeply. I know I don't want to ask at the end of my life- what if I had given everything? No, I want to give everything to the one who gave me life, love, and grace overflowing.

Lessons

So I have learned a little the past few days. To recap- I quit my job, got sick, and becuase of that couldn't go to the camp that I was excited about, and pretty much went stir-crazy!
So what can be learned from these events? Well, for me a Bible verse kept popping in my head. I didn't know the book it was in, so I pulled out my Bible and looked it up. It was "Keep your life free from love of money and be content with what you have, for he said, "I will never leave or forsake you".
That is what I had been missing- being content. I swear, most of my days are filled to the max or I am planning on where to go, what to do, who to hang out with, and where to get money. And another way I spend my time- is to look for things I want with money that I do not have! HAHA!
Not very often I am just happy with where I am and what I have. It is like a ever going thrist for more. So, the word content has been in my heart and head. It is what the Lord is teaching me now.
Through this it made me think of "Be stil and know that I am God" -Psalm 46:7. How often in life do you get an oppertunity like this? To just take a break from the busyness of life and be with God? Ofcourse I am learning this takes some getting use to. Being content is a skill I havn't yet mastered.
But at least I know part of this summer is to apperciate where I am, who is with me, and what I got. To just live out the present with all that I got and leave the future to God. Also, to get to know God in a deeper way without the busyness of life getting in the way too much. And I am excited about it! :)
As a side note- I learned I like green and black flavored tea, which is wierd cuase I hate sweet tea (I know, how very un-southern of me!) Also, I like antique shopping. Me and Becca went to a few downtown today and it was fun. So a summer full of relaxing, getting to know God deeper, green tea, and antiques here I come! :)