So... it has been a while.
I am thinking a lot tonight. I am not sure if this is a post for a blog or a good section for my journal. But my computer is infront of me so I figure I will start with a blog.
I am not perfect. Ok, that is almost a laughable statement when you consider how imperfect I truely am. Only I almost don't want people to know that. OK, hears a sad confession- I have this thing where I think if poeple don't know me, they can't dislike me or really even judge me. I am the quiet, whatever they make me out to be girl.
So, let it be known- I fail, I feel lonely, I get moody, and sometimes I just feel plain lost. That probaly is not a shock to you- I am human. But the thing is, it is so freeing to admit that.
This brings me to God. Wonderful, awesome, loving, perfect, holy- God. See, in my imperfection HIS perfection is glorified. It becomes even more amazing when I see how I really am- to see how powerfully amazing it is that God loves me. That He chose me. That I am His child.
It is freeing and wonderful to have truth wash over me. That I don't have to be perfect, that I am His. That my life is not about me, but about Him. That all my hope, joy, and peace can be found in Him...
I am going to the beach with my family for our family Christmas gift. I want to take this time to have my own spiritual retreat. I want to rediscover my faith in a new way. I want to focus wholly on God. I want a deeper relationship.
I am excited to fall deeper in love with the great I AM.
